Smashing Through Obstacles

Wow .. I've just signed up for this 5.5 mile assault course on April the 1st, I'm not fooling around here !

Just learnt a new a catch phrase today, thanks to the coaching academy, which I'm loving ... it goes like this ' I'm being stretched '. I will be saying it now every time that I find myself out of my 'comfort zone'. When I jump into my stretch zone, then for me that means I'm growing on all levels of my being, which is how I always want to be. Who wants to stagnate and rot ? not me! I think I will definitely be getting stretched after this ... Can't Wait !

Inspiration song of the day

My banana smoothie

I've been making smoothies with 10 bananas. This smoothie is high in carbohydrates (269.5 g)and high in calories (1050kcal) making it full of energy. low protein (12.9 g) low fat (3.9 g) which mean the fructose will be really quickly transformed into glucose (energy which cells need) with out the fat and protein blocking the cell walls. If the cells are blocked then the sugar may stay in the blood and contribute to disease. (this is my understanding thus far).

The point of this is to eat 80% high carbohydrate diet with 10%protein and 10% fat.

I recommend buying Dr. Douglas Grahams book the 80.10.10 diet ! and log onto www.30bananasaday.com more support and help on this diet. And of course I will keep you posted on my own progress.

Spirit guidance

Hey guys, thought this was interesting. AJ and Mary talked about channelling 'spirits' in their Greece talks (humans who were once in the physical on Earth and then died).

They asked the spirits " What practical physical things can a person do to help them more easily be in touch/in tune/connect with, their 'spirit guides/spirit guardian/intuition ...

The spirits replied pretty much like this ...

1.DRINK LOTS OF WATER .. at least 3 litres a day. Up to 5 litres or more. OR even 70% of your intake should be water. no limit given on food intake. Packets of information through the use of emotions can be easier sent through water (think how sound can travel through water)

2.EAT LOTS OF FRUIT ... and salad, veggies .. including nuts seeds . no percentages given. An inclination giving that fruit will be the future of food.

3. EXCERCISE .... they suggested light excercise in order to not strain the body to much. eg YOGA and such anything light and playful ... ( I like to train quite vigorous)

4. FOLLOW YOUR PASSIONS AND DESIRES .... they said we are able to connect with our spirit guides much more easily when we are engaged with our passions and desires. When we are connected with our passions and desires our soul is much more open and active and then guidance is easier to be given. DONT WAIT FOR YOUR PASSIONS ..... ACT ON THEM !!!

my morning inspiration

Just had to post this.I was listening to this this morning whilst writing my morning pages. It blew me away. Sit back and listen.

Dont think ... FEEL

When you know that you know ... you never have to 'try'. Knowing and trying are very different.

Today I want to discuss my spiritual journey. Where it started and where it is now.

It first started when I was 26. I was noticing certain patterns and cycles of behaviour with my emotions and personality. Basically they were quiet self sabotaging and destructive. Often I would be in a drunken mess. I worked as a bartender,so it was very easy to be under the influence.

I was starting to notice that the 'Demons' would really love to play with me when I was drunk. I would happily be able to drink alcohol for a good few hours before the 'spirits' really started to take affect... and YES, when I say the 'spirits' I mean as in' ghosts'.

Back then I didn't understand about how the spirit world could easily influence me. But now when I see a drunk person, I just look at their eyes ... the lights are on but nobody is home, well, actually there is somebody at home, but not normally the person who is in front of me ... Its likely that there is a spirit from the spirit world feeding off the addictions from the unconscious human. Walk into a bar at the end of the night, and what do you see ? Zombies right ? ... The common phrase the morning after a drinking session "I can't even remember how I got home last night". Yeah, that's because a spirit probably brought you home as you where out of body and mind.

Anyway. That's all talk for another subject. Back on track with my journey.

First came the 'self help books' ... then came the 'mystic books', in twined with 'manifestation books' followed by the ' how to be successful books,' not forgetting 'crystals and tarot' mixed with 'visualisation techniques and astrology', shortly after ventured 'meditation, shiatsu and yoga' whilst chanting 'Mantras' and lighting candles with a good few months of philanthropy ... phew, I think that's it, I've probably left a few things out but that's enough for now...

... So after all that study and 7 years of spiritual graft, one would probably feel that I have accomplished a great deal of 'knowledge' about myself and the universe, and that all my habits and addictions have vanished ... right ? WRONG ... Basically, It has just been 7 years of 'trying' and skipping over 'HOW I REALLY FEEL' . I'm sure I've made some progression along the way, but really really, I'm still in the same position as I was in 7 years ago.

Actually, thinking about it, I am much more loving to myself then I was 7 years ago. My whole life style has changed to be a little more loving. I no longer ever get drunk, and I am now a vegan... BUT, those core destructive emotions still play out in my life in varying degrees. All those years of 'trying' still haven't got to me 'KNOWING'.

so why is that ?

Well, I have not been changing anything on a Soul level. And this is where God has entered my life. The subject is huge, so I do not wish to write all about what I have been learning for it will take many books worth. (I'm sure I will one day).

... For now let me say, that I no longer believe the best way to achieve anything in spiritual development is through any kind of 'practise, technique, meditation, thought process, visualising, feeling what you wish to feel, or seeing what you wish to know or be ... because basically ... they all avoid how you are ' TRULY' feeling right now. I would not totally discount these methods because they can be good tools to get into our emotions. The intellect coupled with 'feeling' I believe is very useful, but the intellect alone keeps it all in the mind. And at some point in our souls progression, we will learn to lose our mind and act knowingly and lovingly from the heart. No thinking involved, just instant action !

So how does True change happen ?

First off, the law of attraction will bring an event that will trigger an un loving emotion. For instace, a situation were you are ' un able to pay for something', may bring about emotions of anger, loss or lack of self worth because you are un able to pay for whatever it is that you want. I have been in this position many times. I have also written hundreds of 'affirmations', 'visualised' myself rich and abundant, and did this ever work ... nope! I went bankrupt, and to date, I have £70 in my bank account, so clearly nothing has changed, and I have visualised myself in some pretty amazing rich situations.

So in brief ... now what I do (and still don't always do for some soul desiring reason) is first feel how I feel when I cant afford something ... which is normally frustration (anger). I must first release the capping emotion of frustration and anger. After expressing the anger (in a loving way, which can be done ), the emotion of 'fear' starts to surface (which could be fear of any number of things from childhood). Feeling through the fear fully will normally be followed by a sense of grief. If tears now appear, and the the lump in your throat begs you to cry, then GREAT ... CRY ! ... As strange as it sounds, crying is the way to change. If we are able to cry and cry to the very causal reason on why we are unable to manifest money (or anything else for that matter), then sure enough, true change will happen, and we will never have to deal with that particular emotion again... ever.

How do I know If I cleared enough ?

Well, If your law of attraction still brings you situations which make you feel that you are not worthy, then you know there is still more to clear and cry. Most of the causal emotions or injuries were placed within us when we were children or upon conception, so un doing can go a long way back, so don't be dis hearted if it takes a while. The process is 'simple' but not 'easy'. Be sure that there is normally lots of resistance to 'want' to feel the causal emotional injuries. I'm pretty sure I have not reached any yet. But this is a process, and slowly slowly we chip away. The more humble we are to feeling our emotions the quicker the process.

You can if you desire use 'affirmation', 'meditation' or visualisation techniques, and they may appear to actually work, but be sure that you will forever have to 'try'. When we feel our emotions as described, eventually, when we have cried our errors away and let truth enter us, we will never have to 'try' to be anything. The subject matter will never arise again, in this life on Earth or in the spirit world. When we truly change on the soul level (and not in the mind) we will automatically be doing the most loving thing ... no trying involved at all ... SIMPLE.

So now you know .. or at least intellectually. If you truly knew, then you would probably be not even be reading this blog post ;)

I love this clip ... watch it to add to the experience of what I just wrote

LoVe

Stuff which is inspiring ME these days

Hi guys .. Here are some youtube clips of what I am finding really interesting for me right now. I am currently working these ways into my life to see how they effect my life. Im really loving it so far ... enjoy








Make the Connection. EARTHLINGS.com

http://youtu.be/sus67vhuNgA .... For this clip copy and paste onto youtube.

Giving

Happy New Year

Well, the holiday season is out of the way, and its now 2012.

The more and more I delve into myself and life, there is one subject which amazes me more and more. I find this subject really powerful. One day I hope that I can fully embrace this quality 100%. When I see others doing it, I am in awe. The quality I am talking of is quite simple really. Although I find very few people are able to do it. What am I talking about ?

I'm talking about GIVING ! With Christmas a few weeks gone now, I'm sure a lot of you were giving...BUT...

... The type of giving I admire most is the 'giving without expectation'. I know that when I give a gift without any expectation of anything in return, I feel most joy and most loving, and normally the other person can feel that too.

One of the things which often stops me from 'giving' is my sense of lack of abundance, but a gift is not always something we have to buy. A simple thank you can be a gift to someone, which is another thing I am working on. I often feel gratitude, but then forget for some reason to actually express my gratitude the person or thing I feel grateful for.

Giving to charity / philanthropy

I went through a stage a few years ago of giving 10% of my salary to a cause of my choosing. I had read in a 'Prosperity book' that one can EXPECT to receive so much in return, if one 'gives' 10% of their income. I did this for months and months ... and for months and months my financial situation never changed, apart from losing the 10% of my wages each month. Granted the 10% went to a good cause, but I myself was 'giving' for the wrong reason. I was 'giving' because I was expecting something in return. My views now are, 'God does not Bargain'.

I do believe that 'giving' does bring a sense of abundance, but only when one is giving for the simple reason, that they desire 'To Give'... FULL STOP !

So now when I feel to give, I ask myself first ' Do I really want to give ?' or am I secretly expecting something in return.

Sometimes one may choose to 'Give' money to a certain cause, then expect to say how that money is spent, or feel they are now able to make decisions on how the cause is run. I believe this not to be true giving.

In the past I have 'given' because of the pressure from others expecting me to give, and then been too embarrassed and scared not to give. This again is not true giving.

I HOPE

I hope this year to really appreciate and understand my life as a gift from God... a life in which God gave me. Does God expect anything in return for her gift ? I think not.

I hope this year to have the courage to believe that I myself am a gift to the world. In doing so, I hope my life to be my work ... my love, my passions, my desires.

I hope this year to cultivate the courage to 'give' of myself and expect nothing in return. How powerful would that be ?

As always Im posting a movie clip here. I love this film, Its from a 'Wonderful life'. George was having a really tough time, he had lost everything :( ... then everything changes with appreciation :)

THANK YOU

PERRY

Up Date / forgiveness

Been so busy with lots of work, training courses and personal 'stuff ', so not had time to write. Hopefully I can write a blog post very soon. Just been reminded about how ' forgiveness of self ' is a big part of 'love of self ' . I was starting to beat myself up for not having time or strong enough desire to write a blog post, so it was a blessing to be reminded of ' self forgiveness'. There is no rush ... patience my brothers and sisters. Patience is huge in the subject of ' love of self '. I find I have a huge list in my mind of all the things 'I could be', 'could of done','could of been', 'should of done', 'things I did and shouldn't have done' ... All these cudda wudda shudda ways of being are very damaging in the process of 'love of self' ... So I am relieved to be reminded of ...... SELF FORGIVENESS.

and if you feel that something has happened to you which feels un just. It probably is un just...

and If you ever want to blame yourself ... remember, its not your fault.

With Love and Joy ... Perry

Passion, Desires and Prayer

Prayer ...

I sometimes feel that in this modern world the word 'Prayer' freaks people out. The Truth is ... It freaks me out when I mention to people that 'I' myself pray, and thus, I don't tell many people. I also have some fear about my NEW way of being, because I get this timid feeling that my OLD friends and family will reject the new me. Will they think I'm crazy if I start using words like 'Prayer', 'Faith', 'Love', 'Soul', 'Divine Love', 'Soul mate', 'God', 'Fear', 'Law Of Attraction', 'Cause and Effect', 'Addictions', 'Humbleness' 'Forgive' and 'Truth' ... I feel that the world judges me as being 'WEAK' if I choose to communicate using these words. Just see what happens to peoples reactions when they see a 'loving' man striding down the street with a bouquet of flowers for his other half, the women coo at him in sweetness, and with a feeling of softness raise a hand to their hearts, and the men boo him with bravado and clasp their hand in a way to show how he is pathetically 'under the thumb'. The words I just outlaid may sound 'biblical', and although this is not directly true, it is enough to turn people off straight away these days. I would conceive that the majority of humans do not know or fully understand the true meaning of such language. I believe those words to be the most powerful feelings and attributes one can cultivate within themselves.

SO ... Prayer ? ... Who actually prays apart from priests and nuns right ? Prayer is a huge subject, and I is a seemingly taboo topic of great discussion and debate. Does prayer really work ? Who are we praying to ? Can I really get what I want or change my life by saying a pray ? ... What if I prayed for financial abundance and I didn't receive , would that prove that prayer doesn't work ?! ... hmmm, but that's not how prayer works.

Prayer is EMOTIONAL ... meaning, its not the words we say ... but the feeling we project out that is the real message. So, some may pray with something like "God, please send me more money". This type of prayer does not work because its not emotional. Asking this kind of prayer does not address the Emotion inside of us which is blocking the ability to receive more money ... the prayer that will work and is more true to our emotion is "God, please help me to understand what emotion in me is blocking me from receiving money" ... it wont be long before your law of attraction conspires a situation which highlights the emotional blockage of why money is not coming your way. I for example, learned that I had a lot of anger towards the banking system and authority in general. Do you think that if I have an emotion of anger within me about banks and systems that I will attract more money ? ... of course not, like anything else, money is attracted by love ... lesson being, I needed to learn to love the system, even if the system itself was not loving towards me.

Mainly in today's blog, I want to share that prayer is actually really cool, up beat and alive. It does not have to be the 'old fashioned' way of kneeling besides our bed before sleep repeating words that have emotional connection to us. Like I said 'prayer' is emotional, and so, are we not as humans always emotional ? that means we are constantly sending out prayers whether we know it or not, for our emotions are always at play.

Whilst I am writing this blog, I am actually in prayer. When we follow our passions we are connected in prayer ... and that's the beauty of following our passions and desires, its like a direct link to God, emotions powerfully flow. So try not to think of prayer as this stuffy old technique which only church goers use, but see it as a way to be creative and explore its possibilities. As I said the subject of prayer is so grand that I'm not gonna write any more on the matter right now, but please feel free to comment or ask questions and will gladly reply.

This clip from the movie 'Once' shows one man deep in prayer as he sings his heart out ... totally inspiring ... if I could sing and play guitar, I would pray like this man. Now come to think of it, why have I never prayed about whats blocking me to be able to sing and play guitar, right I'd better get to it xxx enjoy the clip